Don't Trust Me

I thought I knew myself but too often was I wrong
Too often I found weakness in places I thought I was strong
Please do not trust me

I've badly bruised the ones I honestly love
And often broken their hearts with mine
I've made vows with words of extreme confidence
And watched them to lies incline
So let me beg you... while you love me
Please do not trust me

Please realise,
I am very imperfect
But my blemishes seem to hide perfectly
Beneath my pursuit of a better me
I'm thankful for the good you may have seen
But I'm honestly not proud of who sometimes I have been

I thought I knew myself but too often was I wrong
Too often I found weakness in places I thought I was strong
But the truth is one thing I'll always owe to you.
Only trust me if God clearly promised you could

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I Fear

  

In trying to improve you

I'll change you

In trying to shield you

I'll weaken you

In trying to teach you

I'll limit you

In trying to show you

I'll obstruct you

In waiting patiently for you

I'll miss the cue

In praying the best for you

I'll pray myself away from you

I'm afraid

But still...

I'll help you improve

I'll try to shield you

What I've learned, I'll teach you

All I've seen I'll show you

I'll be patient with you

I'll keep praying for you

And if eventually I find my fears are true

I'll be sad...but still, I'll be proud of you

Psalm 151

For You have covered my frailty with favour and my mistakes with mercy
With loving kindness You have rebuked my doubtfulness and upon me have You generously showered Your grace.
Oh! How vile you will be, oh my soul, to distrust the Lord one more day
How wicked you will be to question Him yet again
Has He not rescued thee from the shadow of uncertainty?
Has He not performed beyond what you deserve?

Rejoice, my soul, rejoice!
Sing praise to His name evermore and forget not His benefits.

For He has spared you from the shame that awaited like a snare
And from the deceit of self-belief He has saved you
To them who may have asked secretly "now where is his God?," He has replied
Even to your inner probings, has He responded

Many trust in horses and chariots
On the sweat of their head and the strain of their muscles do they rely
But in You oh Lord do I trust!
On You oh Lord do I depend
For You are good and Your way is ALWAYS perfect.

Blessed be the Lord, My God!